We are infinite

(picture from Pinterest)

Welcome back! It's been a while, hasn't it? I can't believe were in the year 2025 already. Time flies by so fast or am I the only one that feels that way? 2024 was definitely an eventful year for me. I feel like I've lived a thousand lives in just a short period of time. Reflecting on the last year, I think the best memories for me happened in the summer. From lollapalooza, to hanging out with my friends, I felt like I really allowed myself to live, like really live, you know? Hopefully that makes sense.

Reflecting on 2024 has definitely made me nostalgic. I mean, it's not like 2024 was 5 years ago but maybe that's just human nature. Don't you ever wish certain memories lasted a lifetime? I do. The other day I was thinking, "I wish things were infinite, I wish people were infinite." I'll admit, I'm not a "go with the flow" kind of person but I wish I was. When it comes to reflecting on how your year went, what also comes with that is the realization of "damn, maybe I should've cherished certain moments more." With all these thoughts floating around in my head, one thing that kept being a persistent question was: "Can things be infinite?"

Well, it really depends on who you ask. At first, the answer that I had to that question was "No". In the words of Herb from BoJack Horseman, "Everything must come to an end, the drip finally stops." Then after sitting on that question a bit more, my answered changed to a "yes." I believe that things can be infinite, anything is. People are obsessed with preserving things forever. It's the reason why we have museums, why we take pictures, take videos, tell people about the things we've experienced, make music, dedicate that one song to someone and write. While things may not physically be forever, they live on in so many other different ways and I think that's amazing. I think there's some kind of comfort in that.

It's a bittersweet feeling to think that I won't get to physically relieve all the good memories I made in 2024 but isn't that what makes memories, and the time spent with people more valuable? Isn't that the exact reason why we live? To experience the good, bad and everything in between? Every experience whether we like it or not, changes us in ways we might like or dislike. It's up to us though, to decide what we do with those memories and feelings left inside us. Along with those memories, the people we've loved and lost become a part of us too. They might show up in the ways we dress, the jokes we tell and the interests and music we end up liking because of them. We are everything and everyone that we've ever crossed paths with and that's what makes us and everything else in this universe infinite. So, while things and people may not be infinite physically, they'll forever live on in the details of our own world. It's just something you need to pay attention to or else you might miss it.

-Dia